Reparative Engagments: A mad feminist approach to politicizing lived experiences of self-harm

This dissertation intervenes into dominant understandings of self-harm as a pathological problem behaviour in need of treatment and cure, opting, instead, to take as its point of departure an understanding of self-harm as a resourceful, multiplicitous, and socially embedded bodymind practice oriented towards attending to “what hurts”. Using a combination of critical qualitative methods (i.e., narrative inquiry and critical discourse analysis) this dissertation analyzes fourteen interviews with women, trans, and nonbinary adults living in Canada who identify with self-harm, placing interviewees' experience in conversation with the analysis of medical and cultural texts (i.e., psy- clinical literature, Canadian mental health policy documents, the DSM-5, and young adult novels pertaining to self-harm). Bringing together insights from mad studies, feminist disability studies, feminist theories of trauma, emotion, and embodiment, and social justice perspectives in mental health research, the dissertation pursues a deeply intersectional, situated, and reparative engagement with lived accounts of self-harm. This engagement critiques curative approaches to self-harm and works to position this practice beyond dualisms of ‘good’ or ‘bad’, choosing, instead, to conceptualize self-harm as something that both hurts and heals. The dissertation contributes to mad and feminist literatures an understanding of self-harm as a relational, political, and multiplicitous bodymind practice which is shaped by, and which responds to, the social, structural, and political contexts of everyday life.